Featured pic from Grenada Development Bank – My farewell party – November 2019 – Former Directors, My former boss in blue & grey, former co-workers.
In November, 2019, I took a step of faith. I resigned from my highly valued job as Administration & Human Resource Manager at the Grenada Development Bank, the only Development Bank on the Island of Grenada. A unique institution that has an amazing success story. I say highly valued because in those nine years I learnt a great deal. In those nine years, I confirmed so many things about life, about people and about myself. Through the grace of God, I was able to fortify my career as an Administration and Human Resource Professional. Yes, I was learning but I was also being established in both fields.
In those nine years and even before those nine years ( I was employed at GDB for 27 years), God used varied circumstances to remind me that when He is control, everything works out the way it should. He reminded me that I needed His guidance daily. He also reminded me that I just had to continuously walk in faith, looking at his face for assurance and not to others.
It is now four months since I moved on and many times I would remember moments at GDB. I remember them with such affection and such appreciation. I think, in my heart, I would always feel a part of GDB’s family and I can’t help but be grateful.
Now, everyday was not perfect, there were days when we argued to make our points clear, there were times when I did not achieve my best and there were times when I had to be involved in disciplining staff and it was no popular affair, but with God’s grace, I persevered. And you know what I am sure they know, I care.
The appreciating truth is that I miss my GDB family despite the downs. I have given so much but have received much more.
As I sat thinking about the past, I just thought…”My past is so important to my future success”. I embrace it, I own it, I value it and I am so blessed by it. I have gotten to know so many people, to influence so many people, to learn from so many people, to share Christ with so many people. My past is very very important to me. But here this, it is not more important to me than my future.
As, I look ahead, I have new challenges. I have a need to find strategies never tested, as I continue to walk into that door that has been swung wide open for me. Whenever I find myself doubting God, I seek to shake it off, reminding myself that every move relating to me leaving a job, that meant so much to me, to step into the unknown, was God-directed. I have do doubt that it was an answer to prayer. My God surprised me with an open door.
What gets me at times, is the struggle to keep believing that God is right here by me side and I can accomplish the task that He has entrusted to me. I wish that mental struggle did not exist, but it does, I wish my energy would always flow but sometimes, I get weary, I wish I can act in a timely manner at all times, but sometimes, I hesitate.
So, today, I reminded myself to keep speaking words of affirmation, words of hope, declaring the promises of God, declaring what has been given to me as a Child of God. Today, I am reminded not to deny my Christ, never to be ashamed of being a Christian, because, God is the only person that I can bet my life on. He is for me, in season, out of season, when everyone around me seems scary and cannot be trusted. He is there!
Jekalyn Carr in her song, says “You will win, win”! And, I believe that, not only that I will win, but I have already won so many battles of the mind, of the body and of the will because God’s word is a source of strength. I believe I have won and I will continue to win.
My past has definitely helped to shape my future, but my future is bigger!!
What about you? Are you too attached to your past that you find it difficult to believe that you will survive the open door? “You will Win!”