This little laptop represents a significant turn in my Christian walk. I bought it at a time when I was going through a spiritual struggle. It was available to me as God planted a desire in me to write. I never, ever thought of being a writer and here I was full and ready to release what was in my heart. For years I would post random snippets of thoughts on my Facebook page but then after a while the Facebook space grew to be inappropriate. That was when the blog was born, born to #inspireothersonline. This little laptop represents all this and more.
It was a time in my life when I grew impatient and unthankful and as a result my spiritual vision was compromised. I couldn’t hear those closest to me, all I could see was my struggle, my need my pain. What I needed was to welcome the support of others, to embrace sincere friendship and to dig deeper for answers and guidance from God’s word. I have never been in such a place like this. “But” with a capital “B” “God”.
What I have learnt is that when you are in a place of irritability and everything and almost everyone around you seem to be an enemy to your joy or success, you are in a dangerous place. When you become so caught up on protecting your legacy and your character to the extent where you begin to take for granted the people and things that really matter to you, you need to be shaken. I was in that place!
Keep in mind two words, mentioned before “But God”. God’s amazing love reaches where man’s love cannot. God’s amazing love touches us inside, deep inside where the root of our problems sit. God’s amazing love sometimes, forcefully arrests to rescue us so that his way, his will in our lives could take place. God’s amazing love did all that and more for me.
It was during my exodus from this struggle that I found God to be my comfort and my friend. He reminded me that I was not alone. I was embraced, I was loved and I was needed. He reminded me to place my eyes on Him, not on my circumstances, my dreams and my desires. He reminded me to seek Him first.
God kept me through my struggles and chose to plant in me a desire to write. While I had been seeking to encourage others on Facebook with little snippets of writings here and there, this was different, he was asking me to commit myself to a ministry online where I would share my own experiences in a dedicated space where the whosoever will may visit. It was a commitment that required me to step out of my comfort zone, out of my protective space and share from the heart but only to the point where I knew it was right and blessed by the Holy Spirit. Through writing came an opportunity to heal, to spark again, to shine anew. God is still taking me through the process of “shinning anew”. It is no easy, “happy-go-lucky” process, but I am grateful.
I would always treasure my little purple laptop as it represents a significant point in my journey. It was this little laptop that made it possible for me to start the blog “inspireothersonline” in 2017 launching it on my birthday, September 25th. Every year I celebrate God’s goodness to me. His grace and his faithfulness has given me the opportunity to overcome, to blossom in new areas of my life even while I was struggling to hold on to his promises.
I don’t know what your circumstances are today but I know that if you are in that place where you feel you have disappointed God and he no longer is interested in manifesting his glory through you, think again! That’s not who God is. This is the time for you to shut up inside your head and get into the word of God, so he can speak to you. Tell him exactly how you feel and submit to his Word and the prompting of His Holy Spirit. It is a time for you to speak less like a Christian and act more like one. You will be amazed with the transformation that takes place.
Isaiah 43:1 says; “But now thus saith the Lord that created thee, O Jacob, and He that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine.”