Final Chapter – The Love Dream

Chapter 30 – The Future

Jason gently placed the necklace around my neck; it was beautiful! I looked up at him still speechless and after seeing his radiant smile I managed to say, “Thank you!” Everything about the necklace and the moment was perfect. Jason pulled me into his chest wrapping his arms around me. It was our first time hugging so intimately. Jason whispered in my ear. “You do not need to answer me now, take your time. “I know,” I whispered back, “You never pressured me about anything, and we have been casual friends for a while now and I respect you for that.” It is just that I was pleasantly surprised and extremely touched by your actions.

We both sat, and I explained to Jason that as a teenager growing up, I have never met a young man like him. I talked about dating two young men, one at 18 and the other at 20 and they both appeared to have no outlook neither were they interested in wholesome activities. I went on to explain that it was the norm for my friends to become sexually active after a few dates with the same person. For me I wanted more, I wanted true friendship, I wanted a commitment with someone who was focused and mature enough to establish priorities. “Jason Emery, you coming into my life was definitely God’s design, you fit the mould of what I desired then and now. I have heard your offer and I would love to explore the possibility of Marriage with you.”  I breathed a sigh of relief and we both laughed. We hugged again and as we remained entwined in each other’s arms Jason prayed and asked God to lead us and bless us with a relationship that would draw young men and women to Christ.  After praying Jason and his dad drove me home. I can see it was all planned and it all added to a wonderful evening. It was nice getting to know his dad and sharing more about myself. It was somewhere around 7:30 pm when they dropped me off. I felt like I had a lot to share with my family about my evening, but I knew the time was not right.  Maybe tomorrow, I thought.

Dad greeted us at the door and were quickly introduced to Jason’s parents who left right away. After saying good night, I retreated to my room. I felt that I needed my privacy to process everything that happened that night, to unwind. Without changing, I curled up with my pillow and prayed. “God my life feels like a roller coaster right now, so much is going on, please help me to understand how to trust you and give me peace…Amen!

As I laid on my bed, I felt the strong impressions of God’s presence telling me, “You are safe! I will never leave you!” That was enough for me. I knew at that moment that I would never have to face life’s joys, sorrows, and uncertainties on my own. That night I vowed to trust God with my future. That night I knew Jason Emery was the one for me; God’s pick for me and I submitted to God’s choice. The dream which I never shared with Jason was unfolding right before my eyes – The Love Dream!  I was beginning to understand the true meaning of Love and for some reason God chose Jason Emery to help me understand.  As I got up from my bed and prepared to shower, God’s peace overwhelmed me and I was comforted knowing that his plans for me was going to be just right.

The End.

The Love Dream Continues….

Chapter 28 – The Decision

Nicky had some chores to get done at her apartment and headed home. She planned to return to spend Saturday night with me as well. I was a bit anxious about not being able to move around freely. The bite marks were about a quarter inch deep and due to my desperation to loosen the dog’s grip the flesh was ripped creating jagged cuts on my ankle. I had no choice but to adjust to my temporary limitations. I was going to be home for the next two weeks. The good thing about me is that I was never much of a complainer and found ways to cope with challenges as they arose; I was my Father’s daughter.

Dad came up to my room with Joel at his heals. They looked quite happy to see me and after looking closely I understood why. Dad then revealed the crutches he was holding behind his back and as Joel stepped away from Dad’s shadows I saw breakfast attractively displayed on a tray. Wow, I exclaimed, someone loves me!

I felt really grateful to have caring family and friends. The support at home was always great, something many of my friends wished they had. Dad showed me how to use the crutches and notwithstanding the discomfort experienced, after about twenty minutes, I was able to move around without placing pressure on my ankle. That Saturday consisted of crutch training, reading, journaling and painting. I managed to starve my boredom after all doing things I love.

As I sat in the living room I reflected on my most recent encounters. From the accident at our front yard to the pit bull scare. I couldn’t help but see God’s protection through-out my life and especially in recent weeks. I wondered what it all meant. The phone rang intercepting my thoughts; it was Jason. We updated each other on the latest. Jason was dumbfounded after hearing my encounter with the bad dog. We ended our conversation with a prayer.

That night as I knelt alone at my bed side I prayed asking God to forgive me of my sins and to make me new. I made a decision to be a follower of Christ. I didn’t understanding everything about my decision but I was tired of searching and wanted to experience more of what I already encountered. There was no doubt in my mind about the truth of God’s existence; I had heard and seen enough. My search for something deeper was only escalating and I felt a need to yield to the tender beckoning of that sweet still voice that Jason called “the Holy Spirit”. I had no idea what I was getting into.

Chapter 29 – The Gold Chain

My life as a new believer in Jesus took off as a bullet. Through Jason and Mrs. Jefferson, the Pastor’s wife, arrangements were made for two young women to mentor me. They visited me at home for bible study sessions and life counselling. All this started when I was at home with my injured ankle. My ankle healed nicely but the at home visits continued. My Mentors were Shirley Gibson and Maria Sykes, they were both women in their early to mid-thirties. Relatable and patient; they quickly became my new friends. With both being still single, I found our girl talks to be quite engaging; it really helped me to broaden my perspective on life in general.

Days, weeks and months went by and the changes in my life were growing more and more evident and undeniable. My life was now filled with bible studies and my reading material improved; it went from mere entertaining novels to books and articles that served to enrich my mind and soul. I even took on more responsibility at home, offering to pay one of the utility bills. I grew more understanding of my siblings and my love for them abounded. At work, I felt more purposeful and began actively seeking opportunities within the Company to expand my professional knowledge and experience. When the offer to cross train came, I did not think twice. This opportunity later led to a transfer to the Marketing and Promotions Department. It was a more challenging position and I found myself exploring my creative side.

I also felt my relationships with my friends deepen. I was able to share my faith with my old school mates. Nicky, while acting a bit skeptical, would attend church with me from time to time and that was always special. I was very much aware of the mistrust and hesitancy of many when the topic of “church” or “God” would surface. Because of that awareness, I deliberately sought to learn about the Christian walk and to be as practical as I possibly could, I never wanted to be a talker with no real example to show. I wanted my friends to be drawn to me because of the changes seen in my life.

Jason Emery, the man in my dream over a year ago, grew to be a constant figure in my life. We talked daily about my progress, about our dreams and our future. One Sunday Evening he invited me to his home, it was my first time visiting his family. By then, I had met everyone in his immediate household but it was my first time in their home. We roasted sweet potatoes, breadfruit and fish; it was delicious. Added to the food and the warm company, there was a beautiful moon that shined down on us in all its glory! What a wonderful night it was!

As the evening winded to a close and Jason and I got to be alone, I turned to him and expressed from my heart, my appreciation for all he has been and done for me. From the moment we met, all I received was unquestionable love. He patiently guided me to understand God’s love and to others who can help me do the same. While we were not always in each others’ spaces, he seemed to have taken up a permanent place in my life. We grew to the point where we celebrated each other’s victories and supported each other during the down times. We grew to be great friends and I couldn’t help but be grateful to Nicky for introducing us.

After expressing my heartfelt words, Jason looked at me and smiled and uttered the most beautiful words I have ever heard. “I am confident that our meeting was not by chance, the moment I met you, It felt special and filled with promise. You stood out to me as hope, as a bright light; there was something about you that was drawing me closer. As we talked and spent more time together, I understood why; your desire to succeed and to see others succeed, the way you considered others deeply, putting off your needs to make them happy, your level of maturity and your thirst to find truth, spoke volumes. I remember praying for you and asking God to help me to show you God’s love, and He did.

Jason stood and walked towards me, “It is now over a year since we have met and I know now, more than ever that I want you to be my friend forever.” Jason’s voice began to tremble a little as we were now both standing on his Family’s porch with the moonlight glowing around us. I searched his face, reading his every expression and suddenly there was something dangling from his fingers, glittering in the moonlight with what seemed to be a white stone at the end. I gasp after realising it was a beautiful gold chain with a pendant. “Would you be willing to explore the possibility of marriage with me?” My jaw dropped after hearing the question and I froze, totally caught off guard; I was speechless.

Chapter 30 – The Future

Jason gently placed the necklace around my neck; it was beautiful! I looked up at him still speechless and after seeing his radiant smile I managed to say, “Thank you!” Everything about the necklace and the moment was perfect. Jason pulled me into his chest wrapping his arms around me. It was our first time hugging so intimately. Jason whispered in my ear. “You do not need to answer me now, take your time. “I know,” I whispered back, “You never pressured me about anything, and we have been casual friends for a while now and I respect you for that.” It is just that I was pleasantly surprised and extremely touched by your actions.

We both sat, and I explained to Jason that as a teenager growing up, I have never met a young man like him. I talked about dating two young men, one at 18 and the other at 20 and they both appeared to have no outlook neither were they interested in wholesome activities. I went on to explain that it was the norm for my friends to become sexually active after a few dates with the same person. For me I wanted more, I wanted true friendship, I wanted a commitment with someone who was focused and mature enough to establish priorities. “Jason Emery, you coming into my life was definitely God’s design, you fit the mould of what I desired then and now. I have heard your offer and I would love to explore the possibility of Marriage with you.”  I breathed a sigh of relief and we both laughed. We hugged again and as we remained entwined in each other’s arms Jason prayed and asked God to lead us and bless us with a relationship that would draw young men and women to Christ.  After praying Jason and his dad drove me home. I can see it was all planned and it all added to a wonderful evening. It was nice getting to know his dad and sharing more about myself. It was somewhere around 7:30 pm when they dropped me off. I felt like I had a lot to share with my family about my evening, but I knew the time was not right.  Maybe tomorrow, I thought.

Dad greeted us at the door and were quickly introduced to Jason’s parents who left right away. After saying good night, I retreated to my room. I felt that I needed my privacy to process everything that happened that night, to unwind. Without changing, I curled up with my pillow and prayed. “God my life feels like a roller coaster right now, so much is going on, please help me to understand how to trust you and give me peace…Amen!

As I laid on my bed, I felt the strong impressions of God’s presence telling me, “You are safe! I will never leave you!” That was enough for me. I knew at that moment that I would never have to face life’s joys, sorrows, and uncertainties on my own. That night I vowed to trust God with my future. That night I knew Jason Emery was the one for me; God’s pick for me and I submitted to God’s choice. The dream which I never shared with Jason was unfolding right before my eyes – The Love Dream!  I was beginning to understand the true meaning of Love and for some reason God chose Jason Emery to help me understand.  As I got up from my bed and prepared to shower, God’s peace overwhelmed me and I was comforted knowing that his plans for me was going to be just right.

The End.

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Trust God while waiting (Part II) – How to wait joyfully!

Waiting joyfully is not impossible but it can be tough at times especially when you have been waiting for a while. But there are practical things we can do to help us focus less on “the waiting”.

Seek to live in Gratitude. Living in gratitude helps us to place our mind on the things that are happening for us, the blessings we have received, the lessons we have learned and just the simple things we enjoy every day. We should make the effort not to complain and to ensure that we are emanating a spirit of appreciation that is evident in our interaction with others. We can strengthen our ability to live in gratitude by what we read, the company we keep, the music we listen to and by posting verses, quotes and various statements of affirmation on our bedroom walls, in our offices and even in our vehicles. In other words, saturate your environment with reminders and positive enforcements.

1 Thessalonians 5: 18 says “In every thing give thanks for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.” Think about this verse, we are commanded to always be thankful. If you are a believer in Jesus Christ, you are expected to choose gratitude even when things are not going well. You are commanded to choose gratitude when you may have lost your job and you are desperately seeking new opportunities, when you have tried to succeed at your dreams and experienced failure or when you have lost a loved one.

It is a choice that we make daily! It begins with what we believe. If we believe that nothing can separate us from the love of God, we would be able to remain anchored, stable and confident even when we are waiting for answers from God. The joy of the Lord stays in our hearts when we choose to actively believe His promises.

Trust God while waiting (Part 1)

Many of us know what it is like to be on pause. Your foot is on the brake paddle and you have received no directions for moving forward. There are signs that something is happening behind the curtain, you can see a flicker of light every now and then, but it seems like it is taking forever. Despite the discomfort, you know deep within you that your God can be trusted. He has proven it before, not once, not twice, but many times. But no matter your history, it is still difficult to wait.

The good news is there are strategies we can learn that would help us to exercise patience in waiting through-out our lives. If you are able to wait and be joyful and content while doing so, you have accomplished something significant.

Look at your rear view mirror at a time when you planned a date with your girlfriend or a family member. You both agreed to meet at the coffee shop for 8:00 a.m. You arrived 8:55 a.m., it is now 9:20 a.m. and you are still waiting. You are waiting outside of the coffee shop which faces the east, so about that time the sun is hitting you head-on and it is blazing hot. You considered entering the small coffee shop, but it is crowded. On your shoulder is a bag which contains a number of books you are returning to your friend; the bag is quite heavy. In your left hand is your phone and in your right a cold bottle of water. Your hands are getting numb so you are switching both items between your left and right hand. In addition to that, the slippers you are wearing are uncomfortably tight.

You decide to call your friend or family to find out how much longer your wait may be. Your friend/family says to you “I will be there in five minutes”. You waited for an additional twenty minutes before they arrived. The most important aspect of this scenario is that you did not prepare to wait and this made it more difficult for you.

This scenaro allows us to reflect a bit on our behaviour while waiting on God to answer our prayers or to show us what’s next in our lives. We need to be more prepared to wait and we need to utilise our time well, while waiting and while making every effort not to complain or become grumpy. As we experience the waiting periods, we can choose to worship, to reach out to others, to build relationships, read a good book, get involved in “do it yourself projects”, get therapy, work on a healthier you and more, but we must never just sit and wait. It is in the joyful waiting that we grow, learn and are able to influence others positively when we least expect it. Joyful living even through difficult times helps us to cope during the times when we do not have answers or directions.

Let’s make that effort to wait joyfully and never let go of the promise that He (God) will never leave us.

(In part two we would talk more about practical ways to wait joyfully – Please feel free to share tips we can all practice while waiting).

How Great is Our God!

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If we do not know the extent of God’s greatness and we have never experienced His miraculous love we would obviously doubt His power.

If we do not believe that God is the Creator of all things, we would always be searching for our identity in someone else or something else. Sadly, it would never work. He is God and that’s just the way He is.

Our beliefs influences our thoughts, how we relate to others, what we see as valuable in this life and the lifestyles we pursue.

But whether we believe or not, God is the most powerful being, creator of the Universe. He is the Triune One, Father, Son and Holy Spirit. He is Love and His love is lasting and unconditional. He is also Holy, has never sinned and cannot. This means he cannot tolerate sin even while His grace may extend to all men. Our decision to believe or not does not influence who God is. He is powerful, we are not. We are His prized creation and He desires to commune with us daily.

This triune God cannot be compared to any world leader and should not be. God is a jealous God and doesn’t take pleasure in playing second fiddle. You and I do not fully understand the greatness of God because we are limited in our thinking. He is infinite, we are finite. He speaks and the earth trembles. This God through his Son Jesus has defeated Lucifer by resurrecting himself from the Grave and winning the victory over death. As a babe He entered this world and created a massive spiritual earthquake. Many rejected Him, but he survived the odds. He is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords and the sooner we recognise this the quicker we experience lasting joy and peace.

  Job 37:5 “God thundereth marvellously with his voice; great things doeth he, which we cannot comprehend.”

My new year’s hope for you!

Happy New Year! It is by the grace of the one and only Almighty God that we have entered into 2021. I am so happy we both made it.

This is my hope for everyone!

I hope you and I remain or become discipline in setting goals and pursuing them. God created us to create, to dream and to build. Don’t let anything deter you. Nothing must stop you from achieving the goals that God has birthed in you.

I hope you and I mature to understand what true love is. It is not selfish, proud, impatient or unkind. Love is unconditional and allows us to uplift others, sharing when we have much or little. It directs us to put others’ first, to empathise, to listen, to patiently rebuke, lovingly pointing out the implications of poor quality decisions. Love does not divide but mends and unite. Keep this in mind as you relate with your family, friends and even enemies.

I hope you and I prosper financially. It is great to be independent to be able to handle your business on your own and in a timely manner. Be wise with your income, spend after thinking carefully about it. Develop a reserve or emergency fund, keep building your savings. Remember always that your finances are a blessing from God and never allow it to become an idol.

I hope our family relationships grow closer. May you seek to appreciate the family God has blessed you with, whether you see them as good or bad. May we demonstrate Christlikeness at home first before we seek to show it to others on the streets.

I hope you and I remain employed or find employment. Whether self-employment or otherwise. May we seek not to offer meagre service but rather our very best. Seek to do your best at work always even when you do not feel appreciated.

I hope you and I consistently seek to keep our mind and body healthy. Exercise is necessary for healthy experiences daily. Find a physical activity or programme that you are comfortable with but would bring you results. Never tolerate toxic thoughts about yourself or others.

Finally, I hope our pride does not hinder us from glorifying God with our lives. May we never be silent when there is a need to speak. May we never speak when there is a need to be silent. May we learn to recognise the voice of God by building intimacy with him. To be intimate with God, we must allow ourselves to find a quiet space where we can communicate with him without distractions. This begins with a relationship with God where we choose to believe what His word says about us:

that we are sinners in need of the gift of Salvation, and Jesus the Son of God died so this gift can be offered to us. We accept by simply repenting of our sins (turning away from lifestyles and behaviours that he does not approve of) and asking him to be Lord of our lives, committing ourselves to obey his teachings, seeking to follow the leading of the Holy Spirit daily.

I hope, and where there is life and a God who majors in doing the seemingly impossible, it is a worthwhile hope. Now let’s do our part to make our hopes reality, starting from this minute.

Happy New Year Everyone!

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Am I truly trusting God? Relaxing while waiting!

Over the last two months, I have been learning to be more practical in my Christian walk, making that effort to apply the principles of scripture to every day life, something I think should be the goal of every believer. In particular, I have been working on trusting God. As I reflected, I realised that I have been speaking more about trusting than behaving as if I truly believe I can trust God. I was praying and pursuing God for a certain outcome in my life but in the midst of all that there was fear, anxiety and sadness. God used a dear friend to help me to really examine myself and ask “Are you truly trusting God?” Because I was willing to honestly say “no” recognizing that I have been desperately trying to fix things myself, I was able to grow and learn to trust God more.

We often find ourselves crying out to God for answers, for change, for deliverance and we say we are “trusting” God but we are not. Keep in mind that trusting God means to have a firm belief in his reliability, his word and his ability to work on your behalf. Let’s look at a scenario to bring this discussion alive. Marsha lives with her Mom and her Mom’s health is deteriorating. Marsha adores her and as the only child she feels responsible for taking care of her. Marsha has to go to work daily and now that her mom’s health is deteriorating she is worried about who would take care of her mom while she is at work. Marsha believes in God and decides to give this matter to God to handle and to pray without ceasing about it. This is what happens in reality. She prays but allows her concerns to place her in a depressed mood, she is often thinking about the situation and feels helpless. She prays, asking God to take control but she she talks about her concerns at work often, to the point that her colleagues become concern. She prays, but she cannot rejoice or enjoy life with her friends. Marsha prays, but she begins to frantically search for a retired nurse who can come home and take care of her mom.

I see no evidence that Marsha is truly trusting God, rather I see evidence of worry and anxiety. These are the glaring signs:

1. She continually allows her mind to dwell on her situation allowing herself to be sad and depressed.

2. She feels helpless.

3. She talks about it at work often.

4.She begins searching frantically for a retired nurse.

5. She is unable to enjoy the present, to be joyful or to praise God.

All these actions are evidence of worry and anxiety. If Marsha is truly trusting God, she needs to train herself not to think about the situation to the extent where it affects her health. Every time she finds herself worrying she needs to remind herself that she already gave the situation to God and he is able to handle it. If Marsha is trusting God, she would not feel helpless and become desperate to the point that she has to be talking about it often. She would sense God’s support knowing that he would work things out on her behalf and in accordance with his will for her life. If Marsha is truly trusting God her actions would be in faith and not in fear understanding that God would open and close doors as he sees fit, there is no need to become frantic. Marsha would also be able to rejoice and continue to have peaceful, happy moments despite her circumstances.

I always love when I can reflect and see ways for me to grow, to put the scripture to the test. When you and I are obedient to scripture, life is better and we are able to be joyful even while experiencing difficult times.

Proverbs 3:5 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto thine own under-standing”. Psalm 28:7 says “The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoice; and with my song I will praise him. Then there is Psalm 37:4-6, “Delight thyself also in the Lord, and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the LORD, trust also in him and he shall bring it to pass. And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.”

God has given us sufficient truth to keep us thinking and acting right. Practice trusting God for real and see him work things out for you.

My little purple laptop and God’s grace


This little laptop represents a significant turn in my Christian walk. I bought it at a time when I was going through a spiritual struggle. It was available to me as God planted a desire in me to write. I never, ever thought of being a writer and here I was full and ready to release what was in my heart. For years I would post random snippets of thoughts on my Facebook page but then after a while the Facebook space grew to be inappropriate. That was when the blog was born, born to #inspireothersonline. This little laptop represents all this and more.

It was a time in my life when I grew impatient and unthankful and as a result my spiritual vision was compromised. I couldn’t hear those closest to me, all I could see was my struggle, my need my pain. What I needed was to welcome the support of others, to embrace sincere friendship and to dig deeper for answers and guidance from God’s word. I have never been in such a place like this. “But” with a capital “B” “God”.

What I have learnt is that when you are in a place of irritability and everything and almost everyone around you seem to be an enemy to your joy or success, you are in a dangerous place. When you become so caught up on protecting your legacy and your character to the extent where you begin to take for granted the people and things that really matter to you, you need to be shaken. I was in that place!

Keep in mind two words, mentioned before “But God”. God’s amazing love reaches where man’s love cannot. God’s amazing love touches us inside, deep inside where the root of our problems sit. God’s amazing love sometimes, forcefully arrests to rescue us so that his way, his will in our lives could take place. God’s amazing love did all that and more for me.

It was during my exodus from this struggle that I found God to be my comfort and my friend. He reminded me that I was not alone. I was embraced, I was loved and I was needed. He reminded me to place my eyes on Him, not on my circumstances, my dreams and my desires. He reminded me to seek Him first.

God kept me through my struggles and chose to plant in me a desire to write. While I had been seeking to encourage others on Facebook with little snippets of writings here and there, this was different, he was asking me to commit myself to a ministry online where I would share my own experiences in a dedicated space where the whosoever will may visit. It was a commitment that required me to step out of my comfort zone, out of my protective space and share from the heart but only to the point where I knew it was right and blessed by the Holy Spirit. Through writing came an opportunity to heal, to spark again, to shine anew. God is still taking me through the process of “shinning anew”. It is no easy, “happy-go-lucky” process, but I am grateful.

I would always treasure my little purple laptop as it represents a significant point in my journey. It was this little laptop that made it possible for me to start the blog “inspireothersonline” in 2017 launching it on my birthday, September 25th. Every year I celebrate God’s goodness to me. His grace and his faithfulness has given me the opportunity to overcome, to blossom in new areas of my life even while I was struggling to hold on to his promises.

I don’t know what your circumstances are today but I know that if you are in that place where you feel you have disappointed God and he no longer is interested in manifesting his glory through you, think again! That’s not who God is. This is the time for you to shut up inside your head and get into the word of God, so he can speak to you. Tell him exactly how you feel and submit to his Word and the prompting of His Holy Spirit. It is a time for you to speak less like a Christian and act more like one. You will be amazed with the transformation that takes place.

Isaiah 43:1 says; “But now thus saith the Lord that created thee, O Jacob, and He that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine.”